the forgotten..

haha i totally forgot about this =X haha srry. anyways, we're all done with our first year of COLLEGE! yay~ i dont know about you guys but college is such a bittersweet experience for me. there were good parts to college, but there were many, and i mean many, parts that i would have liked to skipped or redo over... i know we go to college for the education and the experience, and to grow and such.. but i feel that since i've been here, i've gotten even more lost. like i dont know who i am right now or what i want to do and stuff... which isn't really that good haha. i'm starting to have second and third doubts about my major and my career path.. blehh let's get to the good part of college first!

i dont know why, but it seems that a lot of people have problems with their roommates. i have to say, i LOVE my roommate :) she is AWESOMEE and soo chilled and so easy to get along. at first i was like.. ehhhh.. but then afterwards, we got along pretty well. no major problems the whole year. there were times when i'm just like a bit grr.. but it always ends up being nothing big :) i am truly gonna miss rooming with her...

for some reason, whenever i start a blog about my first year experience, i can never find a way to continue it or to finish it... i dont know why..

i have to say, my first year i've experienced a heart break.. right in the beginning of the school year... i dont know how to explain this heartbreak if i haven't told you guys about it yet.. it was just something i didn't need... something i want to delete from my memory. it's sooo useless..like there're many memories that go along with the heartbreak that i do not need in my memory, yet they remain in there. it's just.. ARGH

i'm in summer school right now in uop..and haha i think for the first time i've experienced homesickness. haha weird right? never thought i'd be homesick.. but i was. i was really grumpy and moody and emo and stuff. haha at one point michael that i was gonna go into depression and stuff.. things were really bad... (wasn't cause of homesickness... other things contributed to the factor)

dude i dont know where i'm going with this.. this is how i feel.. i feel LOST. i honestly need to talk to someone about everything that's been going on in my mind.. it's just... too crazy sometimes...